Where's the light at the end of the tunnel?

Where's the sunshine after the rain? HAha alright, I'll stop being so dramatic. Been trying to mug for Immune for the past few days, not very successful though. Ended up playing Sims, Roller Coaster Tycoon, surfing the Net.... Alright, I did devote about 5-6 hours of studying everyday, but why do I feel that I'm not doing enough??! 8hrs spent sleeping, 3 hrs spent munching, 5-6 hrs studying annnnd 7-8 hrs to rrreeeelaaaxx?! Argh.... Shouldn't it be the other way round?
Other than that, I think I'm pretty apathetic to things happening. Seems like I don't care enough. Somehow, I feel too weary to care. If you knew someone was dying what would you do? Even if you don't the person personally. Haven't really been praying enough for the people around me, or for myself for that matter.
My mind keeps wandering to places that shouldn't be visited and my emotions are unbalanced. I keep asking myself why I feel this way and kinda realised that I'm envious. Envious of what? I'm envious of people who are surrounded by friends 24/7, well except for sleeping time. When I think about such people, I feel really lonely. Sorry I guess this sounds kinda sick. Why can't I be like that too?? Go out in the morning, work, play until wee hrs in the morning, head home. concuss in bed and it's the next day again. I don't know what I'm trying to escape from here. Perhaps just the overwhelming loneliness I feel.