Defying All Logic-Love

There are somethings that really puzzle the annoyance out of me. Especially when it comes to something that I should be in control of. Myself. Can we control what we like or even who we like?? Somethings just defy. Like why God loves us so much?? There's no good explanation for that huh. Ever wondered if God ever gets annoyed with Himself for loving us? Especially when most of time we upset him and make Him angry. Maybe I will never figure out why. But one thing for sure, it helped me understand how deep and illogical and CRAZY unbelievable God's love is. Maybe He put this in my heart to understand, what love is truly about. Not about how nice someone is or how loveable someone is. Anyways, because He loved me and showed me what love is about, I can love people in the right way now. I thought I loved people alot, but actually.. I didn't. Maybe I just loved them because they loved me. Because when something unpleasant happened.. I found myself hating. But, now. It doesn't really matter if people return my love. Because I am loved by Him. And there will be people He put in my life to remind me of how much He loves me. I don't have to be loved by everyone. But, most importantly, I need to love people. It's this unreasonable desire to share this goodness that God has given this illogically to me. His heart. If God isn't bothered about why he loves us. Then, I don't have to be this bothered about why I am loving the people who rejected me.