Love-Ly Drama Queen

I don't know why I should be so upset over small things. Maybe I am not upset over the thing, but the people involved in it. Relax silly goose. Nothing really matters, since everything is out of my control. Everything's in His hands. Do I sound resigned? I could be. Feel that my best is never good enough, that I live more by grace than faith. Sometimes, I also feel as though no human being on Earth really cares. Oh Boo Hoo! What a tragedy! I know that's not true, but I doubt the truth. Honestly, this belief stems from self-centeredness. Which is why I'm pretty disgusted with my attitude. On the other hand, it also could be the fact that everyone is to a certain degree self-centred. Which is why, I am not the only person who tends to feel the same way. Everybody is just preoccupied with themselves and I am preoccupied with MY problems, MY feelings, MY etc... ... Is this healthy? What's self-love and what's being self-centered? I don't know how to differentiate between the two. You do things that are the best for yourself = self-love and you do things that are best for yourself not caring whether it affects other people postively or negatively = self-centered? Maybe I should have taken Philosophy in NUS instead, with all the crap I can come up with.
Watched F4 yesterday. ( No, not the Taiwan boyband! Fantastic 4!) Honestly, I was abit lost. But, alright managed to piece everything together after awhile. I seriously think too much. Maybe I should just get my brains removed. Tralala. Ate stinky beancurd also... ... Urgh. Died. I came back in spirit to blog. ( No, I'm still quite alive, I just had my brains removed. Explains the rubbish above.) Ok, I like the crispiness, the bite. But, NOT the smell and taste. Smells as though you haven't brushed your teeth for days. Oh well, I'm not alone in this. That's what matters. Hahaha. Tired. *eyelids drooping*